Le omber

I DONT WANT TO BE JEALOUS ANYMORE I don't want to read articles about the rich and famous and get filled with envy at how they are doing something that they absolutely love every single day and are making good money out of it. This is what having nothing to do does to me - it makes me want to do something that makes my life worth living every second. And right now I have nothing to do (studying has become something as natural as breathing so basically it doesn't really count anymore)
Ugh why can't I do it like Elizabeth did in Eat, Pray, Love? Yes I'm reading that book and it fills me with envy.

I JUST WANT TO READ THESE STORIES AND ARTICLES AND THINK "YEAHHH I'M NOT JEALOUS BECAUSE MY LIFE FEELS FULFILLED TOO"

I know I must be patient but OMG WHEN WILL THAT TIME COME? and by "that time" I mean the time when I feel true happiness and satisfaction about my life. The time when I wake up every morning and know my life is worth something. The time when I don't wake up to the hopes of having a meaningful life in the future.

Ugh I hate being free. It gives me the Devils free time to compare my life to others and be unsatisfied and angry about it. I NEED A PASSION IN MY LIFE.

Le Optimus Primos

If I had to describe loneliness in one word, I would choose the word "MAJESTIC".

Yes I find loneliness majestic. To have that big vacant space around you which is occupied by no one else other than yourself is majestic. To have the confidence to live in and control that space is majestic. To not yearn for wanting to hold on to something or someone is brave and majestic. That empty space in which you find yourself is majestic.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not all for loneliness. Having someone or something to hold on to has its own perks, but never forget

Loneliness has its own grandeur.